RAMBLE #2

Why am I not happy?

Actually, I don't really know. If anyone here knew me in real life they would say I have very decent life that people on the streets would take if they had the chance and I totally agree.

Why am I not happy?

Maybe it's because I'm envious? Jealous of the people who are doing something that they are passionate about while I'm doing something I'm not really fond of but it helps get food on the table and pay the bills?

Why am I not happy?

 

I'm not really sure to be honest. I just try to keep busy all the time so that I won't even think about it. It's tough when people compare you to others when you know for a fact you are unique. I believe people who look at me think that I'm a made man, an extrovert but really it's all a facade.

Why am I not happy?

I hope I eventually figure it out. Getting out of the bed and preparing for work is so dreadful. I guess it's because I'm doing too much for someone else' benefit and not for mine? Maybe, but I have to and don't really have a choice.

Why am I not happy?

Maybe I have a perverted idea on what I consider happy? Most of the time I'm content with what I have, but then I compare what I have with what others have which is bad on my part.

Why am I not happy?

I miss my friends. Since we're all at our tito and tita phase, we've all been busy with something. I just hope I figure out my life's calling someday before it's too late.

Too much drama for now. Time to get busy